I don't owe you anything!

For some reason I've had the image of myself sitting across the table from myself shouting "I don't don't owe you anything!" back and forth stuck in my head... And I find it really funny. I don't know why, but I just think it's hysterical.

Mentor

I wish I had a mentor. I was just reading Reed Stories- where alumni can post their memories.  I've decided that I need to bond with a teacher and see them regularly. I want someone on campus to be supportive of me when I'm doing well and that I'd actually care about disappointing.  I would like some other sense of gratification other than my own relief in finishing an assignment and the "good work" written at the top of a page. I think that these things might make a difference for me at Reed.

Two Hawaii pictures (more to come):

Spring Fall

work it.

Spring Fall:

A pointless rant:

It rains

and it makes me want to cry

I hate the winter

and yet, something fun sits on the horizon:

the holidays

my favorite time of year- except for summer

the two worst times of year are fall and spring

not because they're not beautiful

-let's be real- EVERY season is beautiful in the PNW

but because they are dreary

the onset of rain

onset in fall

the fucking onset of a rainy 10 months

ten MONTHS

and then all we want is SUN- yet it continues to rain

spring

we didn't even get much of a summer this year

summer of 2010- without fucking SUN

fucking sun

you abandoned us

ANYWAY

Captain's Log

11:34pm

Crow's Nest of the Giant Peach

Current Missions:

Recon Mission:

Reference Code:"A32920"

Target: My black sports bra

Last Seen: Last week- in my school bag. On campus.

Possible leads: A puddle on campus? Some dark corner at my work? In a stalker's secret closet full of Simone Wood paraphernalia

Importance of Success: 6.223 (this IS a bit of an embarrassing thing to have lost on campus... not to mention i've just been missing it in dance class)

Chance of Success: -4.2 (it's been a while since last sighting. and it's unlikely that a stalker would give up such a prize possession without coercion)

Social and Emotional Experiment:

Reference Code:"College"

Goal: Make friends and connections that will foster a positive educational and social experience for the rest of my time in school

First step: make some friends- COMPLETED

Second step: make sure that those are friends you love- COMPLETED

Third step: find a stable and positive living environment- COMPLETED

Fourth step: talk to people in your classes

-This has proved EXTREMELY difficult due to social anxiety

-It also doesn't help that i don't participate in class anyway

Fifth step: attend social events

-This is has become an increasingly successful part of the experiment

-At first the environment was foreign, but an excellent display of adaptation has allowed for me to infiltrate gatherings

-Over a year ago, when the experiment first began W and i infiltrated a "dance" and impressed the ENTIRE gathering with our flawless impression of "dancing". We recreate this kind of awe-inspiring performance regularly

Importance of Success: 9.779

Chance of Success:... to early to tell, but so far so good??

Mental Endurance Trial:

Reference code:"Academic Classes"

Goal: Stay afloat in my classes

Importance of success: 8.998

Chance of Success: 7.998 (highly contingent on day to day conditions)

Progress reports will follow

-Captain out-